I woke up at 5am to spend some time on web cam with Eric where we opening our gifts together...he had bought me a gorgeous Dream catcher to help purge the bad dreams that have been around as well as two tank tops from Harley Davidson. I love them all & even wore the white tank top on Christmas day.
The kids woke up around 6:30am and we opened gifts with Eric on web cam...he got to see them open the gifts he had sent over as well as the ones his Mom sent. The kids loved it all! It was truly the most magical Christmas morning...lots of laughs, tonnes of love & just the right amount of Christmas magic.
We headed off to my parents place for lunch, and we all opened more gifts there. The only thing I really wanted was a family photo of all of us together. I took the tripod o capture such a moment & managed to get a few. We laughed plenty while trying to get these photos. We ate a yummy baked lunch (Roast Chicken, Baked Potatoes, Pumpkin & Sweet Potatoes, Peas & Corn & Gravy) no dessert as we were all full.
After lunch it was time for me to drive my baby girl Jessica up to Thornleigh to drop her off to her dad & step mother. Before we left my parents street Jess & I were both sobbing and she ended up crying herself to sleep. I did a lot of thinking all the way up there. I will miss my little girl more then I will ever be able to tell anyone, but the real eye opener was the things she said & things I was told when I dropped her off. Also her reaction to seeing her step mother as opposed to how she reacted with me..heart breaking beyond words. She would barely cuddle with me & I got one kiss the entire time she was here...her step mother got out of their car & Jess leapt into her arms & covered her in kisses....she stayed wrapped in her arms for the 25 minutes we were all talking...when they went inside the MacDonalds I sat crying in my car for the little girl it appears I have lost. I knew that there would be a gap between Jess & I due to me not being in her everyday life...but this hurt more then I can say. I guess considering I am moving to the USA in a few short months it is all a good thing...still hurts though.
Anyway, here are a couple of photos from my last Australian Christmas...
Trying to get a photo of my children with my parents on the back verandah...James playing goof ball with a grape, Dad playing Rudolph with a Nectarine & the rest laughing at them both.
The Brown Family, left to right: Jimmy, Bek, Mum, Jess, Justin, Dad & I.
My oldest 3 goof balls. These 3 kids have kept me sane for the most part...I know they will always be there and they know that I love them all dearly...even if they are goofy kids LOL They each have unique personalities that shine through & I just love their little quirks.
The kids & I. I love this photo, we had all been laughing for ages when I took it. 
Jimmy & I. Jimmy was about to leave to celebrate Christmas with him girlfriend and I asked Bek to take a photo of he & I together. This is the only one she took where he wasn't pulling a funny face...We have had a rough year as mother & son due to other factors. We were always friends & for a while this year we barely spoke...but we seem to have turned a corner. Jimmy - if you read this I am proud of you as my son. You are turning into an amazing young man and I ask you to never change who you are for anyone. I love you sweetheart.That is all for me...time to eat dinner.
1 comment:
Sounds like you had a good Christmas even with all the things you would have liked to be different. You have many more Christmas Days to have here in the states with your new family. I know you will miss the one you are with now but you will be a part of a new one soon.
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