Stop The World...

..I Want to get off. The last few weeks have been hectic for so many reasons. I have finished all my Uni work now for the year (thankfully) I am still debating if I should enroll for next year considering I will be moving to the USA by May...so kinda moot point to enroll really.

Aside from all that I had attempted to regain my scrapping groove but I am just not feeling it...so I have decided to start packing up what I definitely want to take with me and the rest I am going to sell off and closer to the move date if there is still stuff there -- throw it out. Sadly if you are reading this and know what my stash was like let me set you straight -- my stamps are going with me -- my empty albums are going with me -- inks, paints, glimmer mist -- all going with me lol. I will compile a list of items/packs that I am going to sell off over the next month or so and then list them on here as well as Ebay. First come first served basically.

Justin has completed Year 10 this year (where has that time gone?) he has managed this aside from a horrendous start to the year for him medically. He is doing ok...he is not doing great but he is holding his own. We had a routine check up yesterday & were informed his Calcium levels are at critical levels again..so medications are back up..that poor kid takes 15 tablets 3 times a day. Talk about rattling from the inside out!! My mum has started attending his medical appointments with me as she will be taking on my role next year with him. We asked about the time line for the transplant, purely so Eric & I could start to work around it in regards to Immigration time lines. Once I am Stateside I can not travel until my adjustment of status has been done, which means we need to get that done ASAP so I can get back here for transplant time. We also have inquired about if he is still on dialysis next November getting supplies shipped to us in Ohio so he can spend Thanksgiving & Christmas with us and enjoy the snow as well. It is all do-able though it will take planning to within an inch of our lives but so worth it to have my boy with us for the festive season. He graduates Year 10 on the 14th December...tears will be shed for sure!

Bek is doing really at school & has enjoyed immensely the planning of her bedroom. We have spent the last couple of days looking at linens, bedroom sets, mattresses, paint schemes the whole lot. We have nailed down the colors, the linen & the bedroom furniture..now we are looking at decorating her bathroom, spots & stripes everywhere LOL (heaven help us) We will start looking fully into the school district & making contact officially once we have a better idea of the time frame...we are hoping that we are there before school breaks up at the end of May so Bek can settle a little & make a few friends before the summer vacation starts in June. School then would not resume until September, so it is imperative she make some friends before that. Eric & I have discussed the idea of her attending some summer school purely for the adjustment from our school system here to the one over there, changing from Metric to Imperial etc...but we are not sure that is a good ideas as summer school is usually for the 'delinquent' children and we really do not want her to makes friends that way LOL. It will all work out in the end as everything does.

Last week my car sent me insane, it looks like the head gasket has gone in it *sob* so now no car for me & let me tell you I am going absolutely INSANE! Having to rely on others is not my idea of fun at all. I managed to get a few Christmas presents & cards made to send overseas, now I need to attempt to focus on getting some presents finished for family here.

I have spent a bit of time catching up with a very dear friend this week. We have chatted back & forth via emails and it has made me smile to reconnect with a friend. It is ironic though, that all the 'friends' who were glad I was moving back to Sydney and could not wait to catch up -- have yet to even drop an email, send a text etc so we can catch up. I guess being the single parent isn't as easy as people may think. A lonely life and there are some days where it really gets me down and I can not seem to see past it..but then the kids or Eric remind me to smile and that it isn't forever...my secret weapon -- the love of my family. 18 months ago feeling this way at times would have sent me spiraling into a black pit, but since I chose to accept who I was, accept all the things in my past, especially those things that I never told a soul until Eric. I found me 12 months ago & embraced who I am. It really is true -- you need to accept & love who you are before others will.

Anyway, my Roast Lamb is smelling divine, time to carve it and serve dinner for myself,Bek & Shrimpy.

Love & Festive Hugs